Right now I have a blocked mind. I am having the feeling of nothingness like a trying hard dumb writer that thoroughly stares on a white plain blank page. That's exactly what I am feeling right now; I don't know how to think properly, I don't know how to digest the contents of any book that I could grab; I don't know how to react in any comments of a customer, and it is just that I don't know what I am doing or suppose to do.

I likewise cannot think of anything worth thinking. In other words, my mind is no longer cooperative that something might have been transforming my brain to be so dumb frozen. Every time I thought of something, I immediately wrestle to another image that is so broad and completely senseless. For instance, while I am busy waiting for customers to come (which normally took for ages and years), I usually imagine a dog that meows and a cat that barks behind the shelves; when an old woman is walking to the store (just passing by but not my customer I am sure), I imagine her to have 13 penises and one vagina; when a man passes by, I imagine him in ice skating shoes while in an asphalted road; or in my deepest sense of idleness when my spirit moves out of my physical body, I could imagine a guy who is forcing himself to write something by the computer with a bleeding nose for his mind cannot cooperate. Well these are the things that keeps on blocking my mind and prevents me from thinking more sensible. I think I am getting to be like a jerk.

Wait.

I am not a jerk shit. It's just I don't really know what to say. I don't have any idea to share in this space.

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What would the reason be? Maybe there is just something I must be thinking and that something I am thinking is something I used to think when I am thinking of something.

Great.

I hope I am making sense here.